i know, im supposed to be revising or practicing my organ piece. but i'm not in a mood to do so. i wanna go out. and relax myself first, before doing things seriously. i mean, i cant quite focus with the state of mind im in currently. many thing's been bugging me. and really, bugging me like shit. especially those organ things. sigh. i dont know whether i should go on a holiday or not. it's like, i'll be missing trainings for about, more than one week of it la. ): thats like, really sad.

but dad just informed me on friday night before going johor that this might be the last holiday with our relatives. and it's been so long since our last holiday together. and to actually miss this trip, i'm willing to cry. but you see, if i dont go for the trip, i wont miss my organ EXAM and hockey trainings. tell me. which is more important. family life or future? i dont know. they both seem too important to me. i'll miss a chance if i chose on option. if i chose the other option, i'll regret as well. sighs. im super trapped. help me.

i wanna go out ):

hazel called me a name yesterday, before i took train with girlfriend, after hockey. i dont know how i was supposed to react. but i just went "that's not my name. omg, no.." it's like, i dont know what i'm supposed to say. sigh. i should have put up a password from the start of this blogging thing. people remember what i post about ):


there's organ class later on, at about erm, 2. and so miss sara shall be next to me, correcting every wrong note i press. i'm sure it's gonna be stressful. i mean, perhaps, i played pretty well for juliet and girlfriend. but i dont think that's enough to bring me into the finals. i mean, i'm just playing the song. i cant balance myself on the seat. i see myself leaning so far back in the tv reflection. sighs. so many things to brush up on, so little time ):


anyway, read a gay blog yesterday night. thanks to girlfriend. haha(: they sounded super UGH. i mean, really. it's not so funny right, when i say girlfriend. but when a guy says boyfriend, it's like YUCK. :D haha! they even talked about "muacking" at Holland drive. gosh la.
i feel like smacking their *toot*(!)

ORGAN! HERE I COME!
i'm trying to sound excited.




i still want my GREEN M&Ms